i just can't seem to finished studying.
am afraid that i can't finished studying.
am so stress that i can almost drop tears.


i feel that i have let my parents down.
the more they dote on me, the more guilty i felt.
when they bring me to eat fine cuisine, i feel the guilty-ness in me.
when they allow me to do things that i thought they won't, i feel guilty.


i don't deserve such good things, when i feel that i have let my parents down, when I didn't study hard enough, when i feel that i can't meet my parents' expectation.

yea, so what if i have been awarded the bursary?
it still can't change the fact that i still have lots to study.


sad.

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i’m stunt.
i didn't know you can have such an impact on me.


when you talk to me, i feel that nothing is impossible.
when you talk to me, i feel that whatever happens, no matter how difficult the situation is, i can face it.
like even if the sky is to topple from above, you will be there to hold it.
when you asking me small little questions, “are you alright?” “you okay?” “ni ke yi ma?” am happy enough.


but i know it's just so impossible.
i know its not going to happen.

i know all i want and wish to do now is to study and think of nothing else.

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****. destroyer msg me. =.="
why can't you just leave me alone?!
sudden msg will scare me.
am having enough problems without you bothering me already.

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