i laugh at how fake people can be.
i laugh at how ironic life can be.
i laugh at how izzit possible that i am able to feel so much feeling right now.


let see...

am angry (over what, that i'm not sure).
am pissed.
am impatient.
am stress.
am sad.
and i laugh at over why I had landed myself in such a state.

my throat is on fire. yes, that's right, once again i'm sick thus maybe that's why i am feeling so cranky right now.
i have got endless projects to rush, datelines to meet.

i really wish i can die now.
but it all comes down to, i'm afraid of death.
i don’t wish to die so young and leaving tons of things i wish to do left un-accomplish.

i really don't want to go for compy.
i'm not in the mood.

and guess what?
i told someone this "can i don't go for compy?"
and this someone replied (with a blacken face) "no, you already know we not enough people already."

i amused myself for not talking back.
but then again who is that someone to say that i have to go for compy.
that someone is not my daddy nor my mummy nor my elders that i held much respect to.

but i really can't commit myself to the training days and time.
i am busy with schoolwork and upcoming exams.
i really don't have much energy left to do other things.

Labels: all about me.