Sunday, July 29, 2007
her friend
put yourself in someone's shoes.
all she can say is you are so self-centered. you are so scheming.
if you don't like others to whisper or talk behind your back, then don't do that to others.
cause it will simply means retribution is on its way.
maybe not a retribution on yourself, but on your next generation or next next generation, which you will never live till that age to witness it.
you may choose not to believe, but retribution does happen.
to some it comes early, to some it comes late. it all depends.
there a chinese saying "ren zai zhou, tian zai can".
you will never know if that person whom you talk about behind her back will find out.
when she does find out and choose not to confront you, it simply implies that she doesn't even bother about that friendship.
simply because she's just sick and tired.
simply because she's had seen you through.
simply because she's sick of you pretending to be nonchalant.
simply because she felt nauseous when you are still able to face her and talk to her like nothing had happened.
she heard, you had not only talked about her once to 1 friend. but instead many times to many friends. and yet each time when you told 1 friend, it ends with 'not that i want friends to hate her. so i never say out.'
ha! she laughs! cause you simply just did.
she doesn't feel at least sad. but instead pity for you, cause it just shows that you aren't kind as what your appearance had shown.
she's not going to open up to you anymore, not going to tell you things about her, cause she felt you are only trying to mingle with her for e sake of wanting to know, to gossip.
she's not going to care, not going to believe words that are coming from your mouth cause she no longer consider you as her friend. cause she has enough evidence from your actions to prove to her that you are a fake.
you can say whatever you want behind her back from now on.
cause she will no longer be affected.
the lies you claim that she had said are more or less e same lies you had told the others.
yes, she said 'claim' instead cause she had never once lied to you, except white lies, cause under that circumstance she feels embarrass. put yourself in her shoes.
the lies you told are probably more. she knows. she keeps quiet.
she knows you are doing revision, but on e pretext keep pretending to tell her/them you had been playing/dating/on phone till late at night. she knows. she keeps quiet. cause at that time she consider you as her friend, to leave you some 'face'.
since you are the one who started first by spreading words behind her back, which she calls that backstab, she soon will be talking behind your back. a taste of your own medicine.
she knows very well that blogging about you is not a very nice thing to do.
but she still does so anyway.
cause she thinks, what's the point in keeping mum about things when on the other hand you have been spreading her bad. cause she thinks, she does have this right since you had started it first. since you leave her no face, why should she still leave face for you?
so stop giving her those shits that blogging about friends aren't good. cause you guys aren't that good either, aren't that perfect either.
tell her what's good? what's bad?
what your definition of good and bad?
all she knows is people definition of good and bad varies.
for her, under such circumstances, she knows blogging about you aren't considered bad. cause once again you did that(talking behind her back) first.
she's not going to feel sorry for what she had done. not going to reply your questions courteously. her sudden change in attitude toward you is what you will soon realised.
soon you'll notice that you had step on her toes, you had arouse her anger, her willingness to break off any ties she had with you.
she's not going to confront you on anything, but you owes her an apology. she will be waiting for that apology. but whether she will consider you as her friend again, it all depends on your future actions.
if you ever used your brain to think, recap what she has done for you. maybe not in big situations, but some ones like maybe for example exams.
if you think you are the one she's talking about, it just implies that you are guilty.
all in all, goodbye to you (one who backstab her).
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right.
thanks to him.
thanks for his understanding.
thanks for his agreement with me.
thanks for the concern.
thanks for making me laugh my heart out.
Labels: when things change for the better something bad must happened before that.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
today--> blur day
cause i nearly lost my phone.
its the 1st time and its a bad scare.
especially when all my homework are all saved in my phone.
this week schedule:
monday: training 6pm-8pm
tuesday:
rest day =))
wednesday:
training 6pm to 8pm.
hopefully it will ends at 8pm.
thursday:
training 6pm to 8pm.
friday:
rest day =))
[some personal time please]
sat:
12pm, maybe going with juan to take shoes.
go temple.
see compy.
training.
***home sweet home***
sunday: compy day..better put down what i have to do, in case i forget.
i really scared that i will forget what i need to do for Saturday and oversleep.
Labels: busy busy
Sunday, July 15, 2007
friday, 13th
harry potter movie is disappointing.
like there's not much content , just a few people with wands and spells.
the book is much better.
nvm about the movie, the more pleasant thing is meeting up old friends.
finally got to meet up.
the last time we meet up was like so so long ago, during steamboat.
of course we won't give a miss to taking photos...

we wanted to take a portrait photo.

lol! linda is laughing away, at what i'm not sure.

same as in this photo.
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finally, linda curb her laughter.
we are all smilies in the photos.
i enjoyed the chat and all the hospital talks from sam and penny sharing their attachment experience =))
i hope my attachment will be this fun too.
went to check out s500i.
the phone is nice, heard from sam that without any plan it cost only $400 plus plus.
$400 plus is consider cheap for a new release phone lo.
the only problem is that it didn't have photo light and no 3G. (no wonder $400 plus only :x)
Labels: nothing happened
Sunday, July 08, 2007
me; again
it seems so long ago that i've been feeling happy that i thought i'm suffering from depression.
so so scary!
i've heard monday have got additional training.
training becomes monday, wednesday and thursday.
3 times a week.
i won't be going anyway.
have to study for ecd exam, which is just this thursday!
i can't handle all the work anymore.
i suddenly feel like quitting the course.
but then the thought of starting from the scratch scares me.
the thought of what else am i going to study if i quit scares me too. cause i don't have an answer.
and just now while eating dinner, i break down.
i dunno what's happening to me too.
my mom got a shock.
but i feel a whole lot better after crying in my mommy's comfort.
its a long time since my mommy give me a hug.
i need more time.Labels: time is all i need
Friday, July 06, 2007
today
am having serious mood swings.
one moment, am happy.
the next moment, am pissed.
and next second, am irritated.
few minutes later, i just don't feel like talking.
weird right.
just not in the best of mood.
better don't step on my toes these few days.
i'll bite.
finally, today was the datedue for submitting ief project.
don't have to touch ief project anymore.
we spent $10 for this project, including the printing/ the file/ and the envolope.
the printing shop at canteen 2 eat our money!
imagine paying $1 per sheet just by printing it in colour. @$$%#@#
anyway, hope we score well for this project.
take a look at our project...

our hardwork; report.

flower that dropped out from its vase.

random photos...

i realised it acutally didn't look that bad from the top view.
but from below, the water is yucky.
during lecture...

i looked so big-sized in this photo. lol!

this is much better.
during ecd tutorial...

juan and i being so serious. forgot what we were busy looking at.

me "looked at her, sleeping during lesson time." 'shake head'.

ops, she's awake now.
look at her eyes, scary. she diao me.
ecd tutorial toilet break...

bel "i know i look very pretty. but no need to take photo."



shan is blowing kisses to everyone!
shan! u don't want wuzun already?
Labels: in school
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
i
i laugh at how fake people can be.
i laugh at how ironic life can be.
i laugh at how izzit possible that i am able to feel so much feeling right now.
let see...
am angry (over what, that i'm not sure).
am pissed.
am impatient.
am stress.
am sad.
and i laugh at over why I had landed myself in such a state.
my throat is on fire. yes, that's right, once again i'm sick thus maybe that's why i am feeling so cranky right now.
i have got endless projects to rush, datelines to meet.
i really wish i can die now.
but it all comes down to, i'm afraid of death.
i don’t wish to die so young and leaving tons of things i wish to do left un-accomplish.
i really don't want to go for compy.
i'm not in the mood.
and guess what?
i told someone this "can i don't go for compy?"
and this someone replied (with a blacken face) "no, you already know we not enough people already."
i amused myself for not talking back.
but then again who is that someone to say that i have to go for compy.
that someone is not my daddy nor my mummy nor my elders that i held much respect to.
but i really can't commit myself to the training days and time.
i am busy with schoolwork and upcoming exams.
i really don't have much energy left to do other things.
Labels: all about me.