i realised i got 3 blue-black ever since i return home from training.
2 on my both hand. one on my leg.
@$#%$@!!! is pain one la.
the drum stick hit my hand while i was teaching the juniors. while the drum suddenly stop in front of me and i bang into it. so that explain how i got the blue black on my leg.
they better remember what i taught them on wed or they get it from me the next training. ahahahahahaha!

since they are so unfair, then i shall be the fair one.

take these examples:

its not like this is juan's first time playing MIA.
what's the big deal? since year 1 she has been like that, so why didn't you said that to her when we were all year 1's?
let me answer for you; "because back in those days, you had limited number of people. you can't afford to chase anyone out."
so why don't you tell those words to the year 1's that have inconsistence attendance?
let me answer for you too: "because you are afraid they just quit on you and you be back to square one."

everyone who had the eyes can tell that you are being very bias.
take rodney for instance, he didn't do anything wrong.
yes, he didn't wear the right attire. he did try to explain. you rejected it down right.
not hearing his explanation. instead, busy handing out punishment.

and there you guys goes, time and time again, so righteous say that we are not being bias. we treat everyone equally. stop these shit talks and big acts. stop giving out words that you aren't what you made yourself out to be. stop pretending.

if penny and i had not given the feedback, would you and your tail still be using the excuse that you guys are practicing for competition, to skip the usual tedious work?

forget it. till now nothing has been done. no practice yet and you still want to go?
more likely to get mock by others. either you do/ decide it fast or just forget it.

back in during the committee meeting, it was stated that you guys reserve the right to punish us when we were not serious. but please do not abuse this right. or soon you will feel sorry.

i remembered very clearly, you guys said 'why has it still be us talking, trying to make friendly conversation to the juniors.'
want to hear my answer?
because no one point a knife at you all at all. you did it willingly. did you give us a chance to make conversation?
or rather have you really got the picture right?
have you consider the fact that maybe we did, but you were too busy talking?
now you guys jump back at us, turning over the rights.

i suggested to play some games after practice to get the members closer together.
i know its a stupid game. but it is necessary. really necessary. it should have been played during the 1st training.
i asked other cca groups, their members are all well mixed.
unlike us, a group here and there.
its week 4 already, gone and over with 8 trainings. the situation still remains.

and

you guys run away like you had seen ghost.
you asked me to brief them, so i did.
fine, i do the explanation of the game myself, without the help of you and your good friend.
you and your good friend just stand there and talk between yourself.
never mind, i got help from leon and penny.

so i'm doing all the nasty job, running errands.
you guys do the nice relax job.
not that i mind, if your had shown a better attitude.

i'm making an effort, though i'm tired of clearing up your mess.
do you know that the juniors had asked me where the coach is when we doesn't have one yet?
how much energy do i have to convince myself its alright to say a small lie?

why do your still bother to step down in the first place?


so far i go in accordance to your request.
maybe i'm doing it wrong?
maybe i shouldn't have?
maybe it's time to stand up and talk back.
maybe it's time to ask your to stop overpowering me. cause your had step down.
i had been kind enough to let your exercise your authority. but guess you don't know where your limit lies.
i'm sorry. but i had enough.

you want to kick bird off. we go in accordance.

but what have i seen in return?

damn, i'm real tired when i think about all these.
it's all wrong from the start.

today shall be the last time am ranting on and on.
i shall not bother anymore.
i promise. i'll just do my part.
but deep inside i feel sorry for your.


let end my entry with:

人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全 。 但愿人长久，千里蝉娟。

it means:

Life has its ups and downs, unions and separations, just like the moon is not always full; these are phenomena since the ancient times, embrace life with all its joy and sorrows.

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