i must blog this down.

since my first year, this is the first time ever, that i am the first person to reach the classroom;
meaning only the tutor and i alone in the classroom. =))

am proud of myself.


went shopping today.
common test coming. ief fms aaa and fmgt have not yet study finished lo.
still got e mood to go shopping.

really is.......... no comments.

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one more thing..

i hate it when people don't pick up my phone calls after calling 2-3 times.

i hate it even more when that person picks up my call and with my constant "hello hello", that person did not speak up.
it makes me feels like am talking to the air and makes me look stupid.


but what i HATE the MOST is when that person picks up my call, though with my constant "hello", i heard what that person said to her whoever "no, u help me answer. i don't want to answer. i scared later...." at least that's what it sounds like to me.

how would you know i am calling to ask for your shirt/pants size and about thursday chu shi?
you don't even have my house number. kns leh!

you ask for it. so i won't bother calling you again.


ya, i maybe jumping to conclusions.
but am i really? i don't think so leh.
i may not know who you are. but i roughly got an idea on who you are and your attitude towards...
so ya. blacklisted. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!


i will try to avoid being online for 2 weeks. MIA.

Labels: study study and more study

Friday, May 25, 2007

game of life 2

i forgot to bring my phone to school today.
i left it at my dad's car.
lucky its my dad's car, not taxi. if not my phone gone case alr.

played game of life today again!
i have loads of money when i retire.
if only this money is real money.

common tests are coming. stress!
i know nothing of what i have been studying so far.

my sis is so hardworking!
everyday when i reached home, she is at the desk studying.
so hardworking! makes me motivated to study that hard as well.

my class is so competitive la!
more competitive than the previous year.
makes me feel that i'm not clever. =((

Labels: where has the feeling of success gone to?

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

game of life

i don't know if we will get karma for not attending lecture today.





seriously, i do feel the guilt.










but the game of life seems much more nicer. ahahah!


At first

i had this much.

bel had this much.

juan had this much.

see my pay day!

bel career and pay day. in the end i ended up with her pay, cause she traded with me.
from $80000 to $50000. sadded!




juan's car; her car is over flooding with kids. LOL!

my car. the first one to retire =D

everyone's car =))

everyone so happy with the loads of 'money'.

jac and mel... so happy with the money too.

how i wish the money is real money.

Labels: just randomly

Sunday, May 20, 2007

simplicity is nice

i changed the blog skin.
with penny's help.
something simple.
sick of all the navigations. so ma fun. everytime have to click here and there. even till now, sometimes i still cannot find my own blog navigations.

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went back to school for project.

we were busy with researching, eating, reading.
the most funny thing was bel's money was eaten by the vending machine.
then she took a ruler hoping to get back her 40 cents.





so the result was:

loads of coins drop out. the vending machine must have cheated alot of people money.
small venture big returns.


what we had learn in FMGT is indeed true.
high risk high return.

we spent all the money on this:

more like partying then doing project.



so now i know where to get my money when i ran out of it.
vending machine you wait for me okay?
hahahahaha!


let's end with this photo

part of TF05 girls. =))

Labels: a day without laughter is a day wasted. constant reminder.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

project week

i'm feeling guilty now.
i just raise my voice at my mommy just now.
i know she accidentally off the rounter. she didn't do it on PURPOSE!
why can't i contain my sudden spark of anger?
will treat my mommy nicer from now on.


i'm seriously lacking of sleep this whole week.
projects are all due this week.
so are choing-ing all the project.
2 more weeks to common test.
sian.


my ears hurt now. and is very sensitive to sounds.
beacause the drum was too loud.
that's the reason why i always beat soft soft. i want to protect my ear from getting hurt. i don't want to become partial deaf when i'm old.
i shall wear ear plugs for every training from now on.



regarding my previous post, come and confront me if you know i'm talking about you. or rather if you had read it.
don't have to show black/sian face to me. or maybe i'm being too sensitive.

Labels: i love my mommy

Sunday, May 13, 2007

let me grumble for the last time over lion dance matters.

i realised i got 3 blue-black ever since i return home from training.
2 on my both hand. one on my leg.
@$#%$@!!! is pain one la.
the drum stick hit my hand while i was teaching the juniors. while the drum suddenly stop in front of me and i bang into it. so that explain how i got the blue black on my leg.
they better remember what i taught them on wed or they get it from me the next training. ahahahahahaha!

since they are so unfair, then i shall be the fair one.

take these examples:

its not like this is juan's first time playing MIA.
what's the big deal? since year 1 she has been like that, so why didn't you said that to her when we were all year 1's?
let me answer for you; "because back in those days, you had limited number of people. you can't afford to chase anyone out."
so why don't you tell those words to the year 1's that have inconsistence attendance?
let me answer for you too: "because you are afraid they just quit on you and you be back to square one."

everyone who had the eyes can tell that you are being very bias.
take rodney for instance, he didn't do anything wrong.
yes, he didn't wear the right attire. he did try to explain. you rejected it down right.
not hearing his explanation. instead, busy handing out punishment.

and there you guys goes, time and time again, so righteous say that we are not being bias. we treat everyone equally. stop these shit talks and big acts. stop giving out words that you aren't what you made yourself out to be. stop pretending.

if penny and i had not given the feedback, would you and your tail still be using the excuse that you guys are practicing for competition, to skip the usual tedious work?

forget it. till now nothing has been done. no practice yet and you still want to go?
more likely to get mock by others. either you do/ decide it fast or just forget it.

back in during the committee meeting, it was stated that you guys reserve the right to punish us when we were not serious. but please do not abuse this right. or soon you will feel sorry.

i remembered very clearly, you guys said 'why has it still be us talking, trying to make friendly conversation to the juniors.'
want to hear my answer?
because no one point a knife at you all at all. you did it willingly. did you give us a chance to make conversation?
or rather have you really got the picture right?
have you consider the fact that maybe we did, but you were too busy talking?
now you guys jump back at us, turning over the rights.

i suggested to play some games after practice to get the members closer together.
i know its a stupid game. but it is necessary. really necessary. it should have been played during the 1st training.
i asked other cca groups, their members are all well mixed.
unlike us, a group here and there.
its week 4 already, gone and over with 8 trainings. the situation still remains.

and

you guys run away like you had seen ghost.
you asked me to brief them, so i did.
fine, i do the explanation of the game myself, without the help of you and your good friend.
you and your good friend just stand there and talk between yourself.
never mind, i got help from leon and penny.

so i'm doing all the nasty job, running errands.
you guys do the nice relax job.
not that i mind, if your had shown a better attitude.

i'm making an effort, though i'm tired of clearing up your mess.
do you know that the juniors had asked me where the coach is when we doesn't have one yet?
how much energy do i have to convince myself its alright to say a small lie?

why do your still bother to step down in the first place?


so far i go in accordance to your request.
maybe i'm doing it wrong?
maybe i shouldn't have?
maybe it's time to stand up and talk back.
maybe it's time to ask your to stop overpowering me. cause your had step down.
i had been kind enough to let your exercise your authority. but guess you don't know where your limit lies.
i'm sorry. but i had enough.

you want to kick bird off. we go in accordance.

but what have i seen in return?

damn, i'm real tired when i think about all these.
it's all wrong from the start.

today shall be the last time am ranting on and on.
i shall not bother anymore.
i promise. i'll just do my part.
but deep inside i feel sorry for your.


let end my entry with:

人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全 。 但愿人长久，千里蝉娟。

it means:

Life has its ups and downs, unions and separations, just like the moon is not always full; these are phenomena since the ancient times, embrace life with all its joy and sorrows.

Labels: i tried.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

i need some motivation.

blogger seems to dislike me huh.
keep eating my entries these few days.

today i had fighted a battle. i survived.
tml i will too be facing a battlefield. i will survived too!

after tml; wed, 1pm onwards, i will be less un-stress <-- is there such a word?
and i will wear a big big smile on my face. unless....... otherwise. ha!

shall i take diploma plus?
haha! too late to decide. think they also cross out my name for the tuesday class.

okay. off to study for tml test.
2 chapters! jia you!

Labels: self-motivation

???

what the toot....

don't know what's wrong with blogger recently.


i hate reading newspaper for a purpose~ meaning when someone wants to test you about what happened to the world recently. economics.

i'm stress lo. quiz test test quiz.
having tutor bombing with endless questions.
year 2 really very sucky.

was watching channel u; how the pyramid was built.
they said they somehow discover how pyramid was built.


i thought. really?
then why not try building one then you find out whether that's the way to built it?
the earth is full of interesting issues waiting for us, the self-proclaim smarts one(humans), to discover it.

okay. crap. don't know what i'm blogging about.
i shall go bath and slp soon. not enough slp.

Labels: tired.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

a random post

logging in and out from blogger a few times since the past few days.
wanted to blog but couldn't seem to find the right words.

i don't have classes today.
yea, 'm sick again.
and i still went for training yesterday.
is super sian, aching all over now.
today there's training. wonder if i should go. even if i do go, i shall not run the track. yesterday was enough.

there's this girl, seriously i don't like her. just the look of her is enough of me to kick her out.
much less to say, now as i type, a surge of anger hit me all over.
i dislike her to the core.
the word 'hate' is too strong a word, and i will not use it. if i am to narrate the whole story, it will take 10 years to finish reading. just simply saying, who ask her to give me attitude, when there i am trying to teach her.

yes, i'm being stereotyping.
stop telling me not to stereotype people.
everyone does.
who's the saint?
tell me if you had never even once stereotype people. i want to know you then. at least you could teach me how.



sometimes i think god is being very fair to everyone.
but at the same time i couldn't help thinking about the negative.


i don't think its fair anymore.
i can't help but think that everything is not like as before.
things change too fast.
so fast, i couldn't find the time to adapt myself to it.


deep inside, i'm tired. real tired.
i wonder why i'm still putting on that strong front; that "everything will be just fine, give it some more time" front.


my mom said my personality is like the exact print of my dad. quick-tempered. and it will get me to no where. i agreed. i tried my very best to change. i did. i really did.


yes, people tend to forget the first feeling of trying out things or when they develop an interest in it.so i'm there to be the reminder.

this time i'm not being bias.
i really think its unfair.
again, i can't help thinking that what i feel/think is no longer important anymore.
a name to its shell.


i quit.
'quit' sounds irresponsible. but what else can i do when i'm tired of everything. i know i've made a wrong decision. i should have insisted. if only i did, then maybe things would have turn out differently. though tension will still exist (only to the 3 of them) but at least the harshness will be gone. And now I feel apologetic.






am i too much just by requesting everything to be fair?

Labels: 1st post of may