i cut my hair real short.
but i'm happy with it=))




here...


up-close.

tzeting say cheezzze.

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my mood seems to be like a merry-go-round ride.

one second feeling happy and the next second pissed off by some nonsensical things.
maybe i didn't get enough sleep. i can't get to sleep last night, till 6plus in the morning and the reason was that i slept too much in the afternoon.


i am so frustrated over lion dance stuffs.
sure, there isn't much for me to be troubled about.
in fact, a very much relaxing job. since there is the help from the rest.
but i just don't understand why, ever since don't know when that i come across these 2 words, i become moody.


whywhywhy?


a thousands of whys in my mind.



maybe i'm sick of the things inside.

maybe i'm sick of getting numerous phone calls from the school.

maybe i'm sick of hearing commands, questionings, pressing issues coming from either the president of wushu, lawrence or kenny.

maybe i'm sick of sending what seems like thousands and thousands of stupid emails and god knows what if the emails i send is being read, or just treated as one of those millions junk mails which will be deleted over 20 days or so.

maybe i'm sick of sending sms stating the current events and bloody hell wasted my 28 msg just to make sure that everyone will read and get the message.


i don't demand for a simple acknowledgement of the sms being sent.
for i know, given myself, i won't too.
for that i understand. simply because i know silence means consent and people will make an effort to be present for whatever shitty performances or rehearsal.



but...



given the case where you already know ages ago that you won't be able to make it due to some reason, should you take the initiative to KINDLY RESPOND to my sms the minute you received the message?
maybe due to the fact of working or whatever that cause you couldn't touch your phone, which you can't reply immediately.
i understand and i don't mind. REALLY. as long as you replied with your long due reasons for not coming.



but i don't see the reason why, how come, it take ages, like 2 days, to reply?
do you think i am so freaking free to entertain this?
either reply stating that you will be coming or you will not be coming or don't bother to even reply.


next. cca fiesta.
cca fiesta is approaching and i have not even draft up the time slot to see who will be taking over what shift.


why is this so?
cause i don't have everyone's timetable and i remembered sending out email requesting for all's timetable. i guess my email is being treated as junk mail. maybe you guys think i'm spamming your a/c with my endless emails.


i'm doing this so that the cca fiesta won't eat into our lesson time. being absent for the 1st lesson isn't nice right.
or is it that i'm the only one who thinks so?
or that there is this stupid excuse letter so that it allows us all to pon all 3 days lessons?


even so, have it ever occurred that since there's excuse letter why should i still ask for timetables? easy, cause the cca booth is so small that it can't fit all the 12 of us in it.


that's not all; we have to SHARE the booth with WUSHU. we don't dominate the whole booth. hence even more no space to squeeze in all the 12 of us.


forget it. forget about these whole pointless issues.
what the hell should i still be bothering when none cared, none responded.
what more worst is that i still have to plastered a smile on my face each time, be nice and sound polite on each email being send, after all the rubbish i've been through.



you might think what the hell is tzeting kicking up a fuss over such small trival issues. what the hell is her problem.
put yourself in her shoe and you will understand how frustrating it is.


now i know how lawrence felt then.




~big sign... feel so much better now that i thrash it all out.

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